Am I Really a Sexaholic?

The first question I want to know is, am I really a sexaholic?  Do I really have a sexual addiction?  So I took an online quiz called the SAST.  The Sexual Addiction Screening Test.  It can be found at http://www.sexhelp.com/sast.cfm
Here are my honest answers to the questions:

So, based on my answers, I don't think it is going to take an expert to guess what my results are.  No drum roll is needed.  Perhaps instead a "ba-dum-ching."

But just for fun, let's see what the "experts" determined.  Results:

We have compared your answers with people who have been diagnosed with sex addiction. Your answers HAVE MET a score on basis of six the criteria that indicate sex addiction is present. To help you understand, the graphic below plots your score in relation to the scores of others.

People!  Do you see this graph?  Do you know what this means? This chart is telling me that, not only am I a sex addict, I'm almost off the chart! I'm shocked.  I'm terrified.  I'm still in denial. In addition there are certain subscales to further confirm that a problem exists. The following patterns emerged in your answers: · A profile consistent with women who struggle with sexually compulsive behavior · A profile consistent with sex addicts who struggle with sexually compulsive behavior on-line The SAST measures key characteristics of addiction. The following dimensions of an addictive disorder appeared in your answers: · Preoccupation: obsessive thinking about sexual behavior, opportunities, and fantasies · Loss of control: inability to stop behavior despite commitments to self and others and despite problems caused by behavior · Relationship disturbance: sexual behavior has created significant relationship problems · Affect disturbance: significant depression, despair, or anxiety over sexual behavior

So, in layman's terms:  I'm a certified sex-crazed maniac.

For years I've joked around with friends about me being a nymphomaniac and we all laughed.  But deep inside of me, I hid a secret.  It was a secret I tried to keep hidden even from myself.

I wasn't ready to say, "My name is Lolita and I'm a sexaholic."  It didn't seem real after just one test, so I took about a half dozen more.  Each with the same result.  "You are a freak!"

Now what?  I guess I need help, but from where?  I had tried therapy before several times and it ended up bad!  I will go into that more later.

I start doing some research and come across support groups, including Sexaholics Anonymous and Sex Addicts Anonymous.  They follow the same 12-step process of Alcoholics Anonymous, but just replace a couple words to apply it to sexual addiction.

Here I am, online, researching self-help, counseling, support groups, etc.  Yet, all this talk of sex has got me unbearably horny at the moment to the point I almost feel sick.  It certainly doesn't help that I fucked Em for so long and so hard yesterday that my whole body aches.  The constant soreness is a reminder of the amazing sex, and every movement I make arouses me. It makes me want her.  God, I am truly fucked up. 

I'm starting to become terrified of the whole process.  Am I really a sex addict?  A sex drunk?  Can I really quit my sexual behaviors and become sexually sober?  Do I even really want to?

Will fixing the present mean I will have to deal with the past?  I'm scared to address my childhood.  I've tried therapy in the past and it ended up being more than I could handle.

I feel terribly alone right now.  A support group could be the perfect answer for me, but at the same time, I'm afraid that I will just be tempted to sleep with the people in the group!