I'm still hurting. I think you broke my heart. I haven't healed.
There are times where it doesn't hurt, but the times it does, it hurts very bad.
I still love you and feel that you still love me, but we haven't healed.
I'm hurt that you had sex with her. Not just sex, but good sex.
The fact that you orgasmed with her hurts me tremendously. She knows you. She knows what you like. She knows how you look and feel. She knows how you sound.
It hurts that you shared the experience with someone else.
The rush of flirting, the excitement of the first kiss.
It hurts me that I'm not your last first.
I don't want you to read this and think I'll never be okay. Please don't give up on me. The thought of losing you terrifies me.
I'm giving this letter to you because it needs to be said and I need you to know. I think it may be part of the healing process.
Please know that I love you and I don't want to lose you.
My heart is hurting, but it's still yours.
There are times where it doesn't hurt, but the times it does, it hurts very bad.
I still love you and feel that you still love me, but we haven't healed.
I'm hurt that you had sex with her. Not just sex, but good sex.
The fact that you orgasmed with her hurts me tremendously. She knows you. She knows what you like. She knows how you look and feel. She knows how you sound.
It hurts that you shared the experience with someone else.
The rush of flirting, the excitement of the first kiss.
It hurts me that I'm not your last first.
I don't want you to read this and think I'll never be okay. Please don't give up on me. The thought of losing you terrifies me.
I'm giving this letter to you because it needs to be said and I need you to know. I think it may be part of the healing process.
Please know that I love you and I don't want to lose you.
My heart is hurting, but it's still yours.
Love,
Kay
What really upsets me about this is that I don't feel as bad as I think I should. I'm still lusting over other girls. I'm still fantasizing. I haven't learned. Will I ever learn?
