As I had been feeling pretty manic and activated, especially for the last couple of months, I went to see my psychiatrist. She believed I was taking too much serotonin. For someone with bipolar disorder, too much serotonin means likely mania. My doctor first recommended I drop my Lexapro to half a pill a day, which put me at 5 mg a day.
I was still feeling somewhat activated, so on my followup appointment we decided to try me on 5 mg every other day.
A week and a half later, I don't think it is working out. It's hard to know for sure as I have been sick with bronchitis, PMS'ing, and having an affair.
But I have been more emotional. I've been telling my friends I feel more "girly." What I mean by that is I haven't really wanted sex, but instead feel like I just want to be held and cuddle. Completely unlike me, after all, I am a sex addict. I've also been sappy and crying easier. And I've started questioning whether I'm falling for Alyssa.
Sure I was concentrating better at work. Most would consider my current sex drive as more "normal," and as I am suppose to be trying to recover from sexual addiction, I should consider it be a good thing. But it doesn't feel right to me. I don't like it at all. Especially the lack of sex drive. Especially the feeling of falling for Alyssa.
So I decided to go back up to 5 mg every day.
Let's see how that works out for me.
